Writer’s Note: It’s been awhile since I spent the first moments of my morning communing with my Maker.  But, no matter how much time passes, He is always willing to meet me; to love me; and to lead me.  He SHOWS up!  Thank God.  Below is this morning’s exchange which started with a blank page and an open heart.

June 20, 2016

Dear God,

I often worry that I am being like King Saul and not being completely obedient to your instruction? I don’t want to disappoint you and have you pick someone else to fulfill this purpose you have planted deep within me. Please speak to me, for I am listening.

Child, you lack only one thing to completely fulfill My purposes for you and that one thing is trust. Like Peter, this is an area in which you waver and is a direct result of you trying to live in your own power.

I don’t fault you or Peter for this as most of my sons and daughters throughout the bible and history have suffered the same. If this human trait kept people out of heaven, there would be no one here. And, that is not what I want.

What I most desire is that you keep bringing your focus back to Me. Learn to recognize the signs that you are taking back control. Feelings of  worry, confusion, stress, and of being lost are just a few red flags that should make you stop in your tracks. Yes, child, every time you feel yourself trying to take back control, stop and simply whisper My name, out loud or under your breath. I will hear you. Focus on Me. Talk to me. Cry out to Me. And then listen.

I am pleased with you, Child. Know that. You never get too far away before calling out to Me. As long as you keep plugging away, I will continue to bless you in the purpose I have chosen for you. Yes, I would like for you to spend more time with Me. Yes, I would like for you to quit worrying so much about your job and your health. I have you in My care and there is no better place to be. Trust me, dear child. Remember that deer that I showed you recently. He signified that no matter what is going on behind the scenes of your life, you have no reason to fear; for I am in control of it all and you live under the protection of My love, power and will for your life. Nothing, but nothing will be able to take you from Me and from My purpose for you. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Trust me, My child. I am the light behind any shadows that may pervade your life. I show this darkness to you so that you can walk around it and into My Glory light. You are never alone, yet you don’t always see Me here. Read 1 Corinthians 2:15-16. Find it in your Bible. Then look at the study notes in your bible. What does it say, child?

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1 Corinthians 2:15-16: Those who are spiritual can evaluate all things, but they themselves cannot be evaluated by others. For, “Who can know the Lord’s thoughts? Who knows enough to teach him?” But we understand these things, for we have the mind of Christ.

Study note: No one can know what the Lord is thinking, but through the guidance of the Holy Spirit, believers have insight into some of God’s plans, thoughts and actions. They, in fact, have “the mind of Christ.” Through the Holy Spirit, we can begin to know God’s thoughts and prayers. Are you spending enough time with Christ to have his very mind in you? An intimate relationship with Christ comes only from spending time consistently in His presence and in His word.

Oh, dear Lord, how can I thank You for being so patient and loving toward me? The word consistently jumps out at me as I know that this is where I falter. I am inconsistent when it comes to spending time in Your Presence and Your Word. I let worldly worry and worldly life get in my way. I don’t go to sleep soon enough. I don’t wake soon enough. I numb my mind with distractions. I don’t mean to do this, Lord, but it just happens. And, yet, when I do wake up and call Your name, You are there. Patiently and lovingly waiting. You speak to me on this written page. You send me to just the right scripture in Your Living Word. You love me. You lead me. All I have to do is stand close enough to hear You. Lord, I want this more than anything. Help me to stay close to You and live in obedience to Your leading. I can’t wait to see what You have in store for I know in the deepest reaches of my heart that it is what is best and it will be good.

1 Corinthians 2:9 comes to mind.

“That is what the Scriptures mean when they say, ‘No eye has seen, nor ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.’

*Sigh* Again, twice in just a few moments with You, the perfect Scriptures at the perfect moment. Thank You, Lord, for this morning and this reminder. I love being in Your Presence. There is no place I would rather be. I love You. Bring on this day. I can do anything with You standing right beside me. Amen and Ehmen.