Note: I hesitated to post this personal prayer journal entry from earlier this month, telling myself that it probably wasn’t of interest to anyone else. However, in reality, I think it was more that I was waiting to see if He would really show up as I set out to wholeheartedly seek His face; if He would really open the door when I knocked.
Spoiler alert: He DID!
Just as He always does and will again and again until the end of time, He SHOWED UP and SHOWED OUT and then some. My asthma is back under control; I am writing again; and the voice and miracles of the Holy Spirit have resumed. Woo Hoo! More on that in future blog posts. God is so very good, y’all. All the time, He is so very good. –Brenda.
August 5, 2019
Lord, I feel Your Presence this morning.
Actually, I’ve been becoming more and more aware of Your closeness over this past week or so. Thank you for sending the D-group Bible Study girls into my life. I see You working throughout the entire group and know that You are using each of us individually and together for great things.
Thank you, too, for the lady you sent to lay hands on me and pray for me in Lowe’s while standing in the air filter section. I know THAT was you. You knew I was struggling greatly with asthma, but she didn’t. She just showed up and the next thing I know she was speaking healing over me.
Give me the unyielding faith to BELIEVE that healing is already mine. I’m already feeling better. Keep me in this faith space, Lord.
Help me, too, to get back on track with my writing and to be obedient. I miss those times of miracles, just from listening to Your voice and following each prompting of the Holy Spirit. I want that again, Lord. I want YOU, Lord.
Your Word says ask and you will receive. I’m asking, Lord.
Your word says seek and you shall find. I’m seeking, Lord.
And, Your Word says, knock and it will be opened to you. I’m knocking, Lord. I’m ready to beat down the door, in fact.
I love you, God. With all that I am, I love You and praise You! Thank you for loving me without cease.
Amen and Ehmen.
And in my spirit, these are the words that I heard…
Dear Child,
You are so very special to Me.
I wish that all of you knew just how much you mean to Me. You are each a pivotal part of all Creation.
I need you to understand that, Child. You are NOT an accident and you are absolutely NOT insignificant. You and everything that I purposed for You is critical in bringing My Kingdom to fruition.
You must take that seriously, Child, but don’t take yourself so seriously. There is a huge difference.
Stay in MY Presence. I’m always with you. Listen for My Voice at all times. Even when it does not make sense to you, be obedient.
This is the ONLY way you will ever move My Purpose for you along. You cannot do any of it alone, but you can and will do it with My help.
Oh, the journey we will take together, Child. You just don’t know. The joy. The love. The peace. The impact. It’s going to be GOOD, my dear one.
I can’t wait to share it with you.
Have a beautiful day and take the time to just breathe it all in. You are healed.
amen and ehmen! 